Time still exist

All i can think of now is about love, how do we give so much, and how much it hurts when we can't give anymore to someone the love we have for them.
I don't want to give my love anymore, not if they are going to go and leave me here, missing them, crying them, suffering for them. But it is innevitable not to, and its painfull. To feel that the people i still have with me could go in a sec, just like that, so easily, so simple, it has become one of my biggets fears ever, even more when it comes about people i care more than anything, i don't want to ever even think about how i would feel if i lose them, if i lose you.
Please let me find an answer without losing my hope. It seems like im not capable of keep going like this, im scared of feeling so sad all the time, i say thanks to god for letting me know people thats is capable of make me smile just because they exist. All i can do is enjoy my life, like they would have want me to do.

This is for you grandpa always in my heart. For you Carlos. And specially for you Person, there hasn't been that i haven't missed you.